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Grieving In Silence

Grieving is a part of healing. I know that. What I can’t comprehend is “how long does one grieve and when does it become unhealthy?” I have been grieving in silence for 3 months now and I’m a little worried about the way that I’m feeling about Celle’s passing. I want to talk to someone  and express how I’m feeling, but not just anyone. There are about 3 people who I would truly feel comfortable having a conversation about him with, but the sad thing is, neither of them know that I need and want to talk to them about Celle. I really don’t know how long  after I’ve had the conversation with these people that it’s going to take for me to feel better, but in the past, talking about him has made me feel better. I just miss him so much, even I don’t understand it. The way that I feel, one would think that I was in a relationship with him. Maybe I feel this way because I really and truly thought of him as famly and it’s like a family member is gone. I will never forget him and what he did for me.

I REALLY MISS YOU

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I Just Don’t Understand

This may go on and on and be a little sad, but I need to unload this off of me.

Most of the time I think I’m a pretty smart person and usually don’t let hardly anything keep me from getting a good night’s sleep, but I haven’t slept in about two weeks now. I take little naps at night, any time over 3 hours I can forget about it. I’m up at night and through the day thinking about Celle and how much he meant to me and how much I’m going to miss him and already do. I know death occurs daily, but for some reason I can’t understand why he had to die, especially when, from what I saw, he looked fine. I don’t know if he knew just how much I looked up to him and how much he encouraged me and made it easier for me to be able to deal with my situation. We didn’t talk that much, but I knew that he was the one person who truly knew how I felt and his mom knew how my mom feels.

He touched so many people and sometimes I feel kind of selfish for wanting him to still be here for me, but I just don’t know what else to feel. I would’ve never thought that his passing would affect me so much, but I guess I underestimated how much both Fred and I relied on him. Just knowing that he was living so close to me brought so much comfort and peace, even before I left the hospital. Seeing him in the hospital and encouraging me, made my recovery more manageable and the condition accepting. I thank the Lord for allowing me 4 years with him and hope I can let go of him without losing my mind. I know I usually don’t express my feelings, but I miss him so much. I selfishly believe that he was put here to be my angel and get me through what God knew would be in my future. He was like a little brother that guided me and his mom became my mom, just as my mom became his. We were and still are a family. Celle will ALWAYS be in my heart. I thank him for being there for and with me throughout everything. I don’t know where I would be if it wasn’t for you, Fred and Mark. Whether you knew/know it or not, y’all keep me going and smiling. I’ll try to let go and remember that you faced every obstacle head-on and didn’t let anything hold you down. or keep you in the house, for that matter :). I’ll hold onto the memories and smile when I think of you and know that you did what you were supposed to do, now it’s my turn and I shouldn’t let you down or myself. I just want to say THANK YOU for allowing me to be a part of your life.

Writing this has lifted my spirits and made me smile. I’m happy about that.

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R.I.P. Jercelle

Jercelle didn’t make it, he passed away Sunday morning. He is still truly loved and will be missed dearly. I’ll ALWAYS remember you Celle and be grateful for what you have done for me and my spirit.

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Prayers for Celle

Please send up a prayer for a friend of mine, Celle. He’s in the hospital battling a major illness. He is one of the few people who truly understands what I go through and I’m praying for his healing. He may not know, but he truly is one of my inspirations.

Get better, Celle and HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!

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Vitamin K Comes From What?

My friend is HILARIOUS!!!!!! One of the many reasons I luv her. Luv ya gurl.

So we’re catching up and this is how the conversation goes:

Me- I went to the doctor and they told me I need to come back in 2 weeks because my blood wasn’t clotting properly?

Her- How they know that?

Me- I had to get a shot in my finger and the blood just ran like water?

Her- Oh, well what will you need to take?

Me- Kris said that I’ll probably need Vitamin K?

Her- Vitamin K? Can’t you get that from Special K?

Me- What, lol? Wait a minute, lol?

 She realizes what she has said and starts laughing.

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Ham

A friend and I were having a discussion about food last night. I thought it was so funny, so I’ve decided to share.

Me: I’m so hungry, but we only have ham.

Her: Ham, I thought you didn’t eat pork?

Me: It’s not pork, it’s turkey ham.

Her: Ham is ham and it comes from a pig.

Me: This is turkey ham, it comes from a turkey.

Her: Then it’s not ham, it’s turkey.

Me: I give up.

Both: laughing uncontrollably

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